An innie or an outie?

Since the moment I conceived my husband and I have been dying to know whether the baby will be a boy or girl. Frankly, it's been driving me a bit crazy. I'm not a patient person by nature so waiting for anything is hard for me. And I've got to admit we had a preference; a girl. For some reason each of us has always wanted a daughter and when we married and began talking of children we both hoped that our first would be a girl. We each have nephews but there are no little girls in the immediate family and we're the last that will be having children in our generation so if our parents are going to have a granddaugher it's up to us to produce one. It would just be so fun for everyone to finally be able to buy dolls and cute little girl clothes. All my life, whenever I imagined having a child, I was imagining having a daughter. A few years ago when my hubby had me visit a psychic as part of my birthday present she even told me that we'd have a daughter first. So when I got pregnant we were both desperately hoping the baby would be a girl. I even kept refering to the baby as a girl (and my family does as well) and then I'd feel guilty because it could just as easily be a boy. Actually it's probably more likely to be a boy considering all of our siblings have had sons and John's parents produced two boys before having their first daughter. Genetics seems to be against us.

A strange shift seems to have happened in the last month or so. I was really worried in the beginning that I'd be unhappy if we found out we were having a boy first (not that we hate boys, we just had our hearts set on a daughter first). Now that the baby has become a real little person inside of me, I really don't care as much whether it's a boy or a girl. I know it's a cliche to say but all I really really want is to have a healthy, happy baby (and an easy delivery!!! :) ).  My fears of being disappointed have abated and I know that no matter what I'm going to adore this baby. We are just so blessed to be having one at all. Each child is a miracle and I know that we'll get exactly what is right for us. I definitely wouldn't mind a little boy just like my husband, so a son will be just as wonderful as a daughter.

I'll be having my 20 week ultrasound on Aug. 6th and we'll hopefully find out then if the baby is a boy or a girl. I just can't wait!!! We've been holding off on buying baby things until we know which we're having and I'm just so excited to finally know and begin creating a nursery. I think my nesting instincts are starting to kick in. Of course knowing my luck the baby will be camera shy and we still won't be able to tell the sex. That would be such a disappointment. I'm sooooo ready to know! It seems really hard to find unisex baby things right now and I'm REALLY ready to start shopping :).

Comments

[Squilla]

You do know that just because you want a little girl that it will be a little boy, don't you? That's how life usually works for me, anyway. But the journey is always good no matter what you get.

You are such a tease Meegan - now I can't wait to know. Most of my friends leave it right up until the day of delivery, but I figure if you want to know and you can then why not?! It's still a surprise. :D

Having said that, I have a friend who has three boys and during her fourth pregnancy they told her it was a girl. They went out and bought all these pink frilly outfits and dolls, etc, and guess what? it was a bonnie baby boy. The technology is not always 100%.

[Flamingo Girl]

Lol, I kinda figure we'll end up with a boy first. I've decided to believe that having a boy first means God just wants us to have a big family and we're suppose to keep on trying! Though I am cutting this off at 4,lol. I lived with and helped raise my nephews so I do know how incredible little boys are so it won't be a huge disappointment. I think the novelty of finally having a girl in the family is what really appeals to both of us.

Ugh, your ultrasound story is my worst nightmare! That's why even when we find out what the baby is 'suppose' to be we're going to keep the pink and blue to a minimum and look for unisex. We don't intend to buy tons of stuff up front anyway. I remember from my sister and brother's babies that they had a bajillion unnecessary things and multiple dozens of newborn outfits that the babies instantly grew out of. I'm going to try and control myself and only get necessarry items. I said TRY, I'm not promising anything. Baby stuff is just so darn cute! We can't really buy much right now anyway. We're having a winter baby and all the stuff out now is very lightweight.